Yup, i back to Kl again, had able to meet up most of my friends.
I had leave my lovely KL city for a month,i start become a stranger in this city. I am become afraid to order food, afraid of talking and chatting.
Sometime hanging with friends, they joke around , yup, the joke is funny, if compare with last time, i sure will laugh until fall at the floor. But nowday, i starting to forget what is about joke. I know the joke is funny, but i dont know i just cant laugh out.
I starting don't know how to communication with my friends, my mind is out of focus.
I can be silent sometime. I start loving to be alone. Alone sit at starbucks or Coffee bean, doing my works ,having a very nice blended coffee, listen to music, look the people around.
I planning to watch movie alone, but i am afraid of being alone(of course i not mean the cinema only got me la ) in the cinema, i wont forget i did watch movie alone before, gold compass.
i sit within a pair of lovely couple and happy family. Maybe i do care people look at me, i feel so i innocent. A so good looking guy (can consider) like me, go to cinema watch movie alone,sure mental got problem or gay.
Thanks for see nyin & zihao able to spent time with me to watch "The Dark Knight" later. Else i will stick my ass in starbuck until night time :D
Maybe my mind still had "her", i learning to let go. Maybe sometime i still think of her, no doubt that she is the only person can understand me well and most close to me. There is nothing about who fault to make the decision, i think is time to release myself and accept the truth.
I will try my best to learn my role to become your best friend. I know you wont have the time to read my words and you never visit on what i wrote too. And i also not expected you will read it.
In my mind and concept :" Love/like a person, you wont expect she will know but you will wish her found her happiness". Sound stupid hor? I also not sure.
Don't worry, i am be fine. But no doubt that i start to loving be alone. Cheers my lovely mocha ice blended coffee :x
Coffee, music are my best friends during my night time.